First let me say, I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving yesterday, and get a chance to rest with full bellies.

Some times holidays are hard…

Our mind may try to go towards sad memories of loved ones not with us anymore, or problems that will be after the holidays, returning to work, or a feeling of depressed idleness. We get so busy preparing for things and suddenly it is done.

My mood is a bit somber this morning, as my mind tries to become quiet.

For some of us, God’s peace is unknown for the most part of our life, and when he does give it to us, it’s like, I don’t know what to do with it. I would like to sit on it. For just a moment, savor it, because I know I can’t hold onto it for long being on this earth.

So many thoughts lately try to pry the peace out of me. So many complications.

So for the moment, what I am most thankful for is the peace that God gives me. So many things, there would not be enough trees on the earth to make the paper I would need if I was to write what I am thankful for from God. No words could be uttered, that would barley scrape the surface of how thankful for him in my life and what he has done for me.

I am so undeserving. I think sometimes, I haven’t done anything in my life good enough for his love. I mess up all the time, daily, hourly, within minutes. I try so hard to do what’s right, but in this world, there is no succession with that if you are looking to do so in man’s eyes. Every action you have will be wrong in someone else’s opinion. Even feeding families for thanksgiving, people want to make it complicated and a mess. When my only focus was trying to have joy in helping children that may not even get any food during the holidays, let alone a regular daily basis.

I think that’s why I have a hard time in this world most days. My mind is so simple most often, and I cannot handle the complexity of others. It is why I isolate, why I don’t ‘hang out’ or go do things with others. Because in my isolation, I can get close to God. I can settle in that quiet peace that he gives me. It’s just natural human instinct to want to be social that my mind fights. But in reality, the only friend I will ever need is Jesus.

So , that is what is on my heart this morning. Thankful for the peace God gives me, and I pray my eyes stay open and focused on him.

I Samuel 25:6

And thus shall ye say to him that liveth in prosperity, Peace be both to thee, and peace be to thine house, and peace be unto all that thou hast.