I pick Satan up and put him on like a pair of shoes. I just take him with me. If anyone has seen me talk on the phone, I walk about 10 miles in a 10 minute conversation. But Satan leads me and walks me around in laps till I’m so exhausted. I just wanna pass out or throw up, thats what John said he’d do after running laps for basket ball. But I get so sick I just want to throw up, throw my hands up if I’m honest. I get so tired of this world. But its not the world really, God’s creation, there isn’t flaw. But I get tired of the people in it. No matter how hard you try, there will always be hurt and pain with people. Maybe not always intentionally. But there will be.

Something else about me, on the other side. I hate shoes. I must have been one of those babies that always kicked my shoes off, because when I’m bare foot, I feel free. That’s how I feel when I kick Satan off. Free. Jesus puts such a freedom in my heart. And no one. No one. Can ever convince me that, that, is any other feeling than Jesus. Because I am saved, and I’m going to meet my Dad one day. Not my earthly father, I never had one, don’t know, don’t care, but I’m talking about my Heavenly Father one day. And I will praise him forever and ever. And there isn’t anyone that can take that away from me. That is the only Hope I have, that is the only 100% certian thing that is surer than the air I’m breathing right now.

I love my husband more than anything on this Earth. That man, has done more for me than I could ever have imagined in my life. But he couldn’t have saved me. He planted the seeds, but if I died after we started dating before I was saved I would have went to Hell. I was stubborn. I didn’t want to be forced to go to church. I said I want to go on my own time. Heh, now you can’t keep me out of here sometimes. But he couldn’t save me, only Jesus could do that. But I had to make the choice. And I did. I was so lost and in so much pain, I needed a savior and Jesus came to me in my house, in my room, and he wrapped his arms around me and showed me a love that I had never seen before. He came into my heart and saved me. I didn’t deserve it. I don’t deserve anything in my life.

We can say, oh don’t say that, or you’re so sweet and this and that. But folks, those are just words, opinions we have for each other. But deep down I am one of the lowest ones here. I’ve done bad things in my life, I’m not smart, I’m not pleasing to the eye, I can’t do much physically anymore it seems. This old house is getting old. Let’s in the rain and the cold.

But one day, by the mercy of God, I won’t need this house any longer. I won’t be in no pain anymore. Folks, yalls do not know the pain I live in on a daily basis. If God had not given me the endurance and the strength, I’d be on oxycodone twenty-four seven. I’ve sold drugs in my life, I’m not a stranger to that world, I could easily go there. But thats the old man. Thanks be to God, he made me durable to handle and have a high tolerance where I don’t need drugs to deal with the pain. Oh yeah they help, but at what cost? God’s pain killer doesn’t have a cost. His pain killer of the holy spirit is free and doesn’t have any side effects, except for joy. 

Freedom in Jesus. That’s what I want to keep in mind on a second basis, not an hourly or minute basis, but a second, every moment, every breath basis. I kick Satan off, and run into my Dad’s arms. Barefoot and free.

1 John 3:6 KJV – 6 Whosoever abideth in him sinneth not: whosoever sinneth hath not seen him, neither known him.

When we are saved, nothing can take us away from our Father’s hands.