Why is it so hard to be honest?

Really ask yourself that question. And I’m talking about HARD honest. No sugar coating. In my opinion, people who are hard honest with no regret, you’re in your own little category because I’d say most of the time they don’t know God’s love. Because for me, that’s what makes the hard truth difficult to say in certain situations. Because that is where compassion comes in. With true God Love, even to your enemies, you should not wish to see them suffer. I’d say most of the time, when we feel the weight of a hard truth needing to surface, it is gonna cause hurt or harm. Not that it is our intentions, but usually that’s the case.

So I ask again, why is it so hard to be honest?

Honest to your peers, to authority, to yourself, and to God.

People in your life come and go, and you would think being honest with those would be the easiest. Unfortunately, those people shape your life, whether you want them to or not. Honesty with authority, that could go both ways depending on the authority we are talking about.

To myself is the second hardest for me. I fight myself on a daily basis. As Paul said, he died daily. I do the same. Some days it feels so many times I don’t know how I make it though the day.

Honesty with God is getting better. But that’s where our honesty comes from stripping down everything we have, and even know He knows all, we have to willingly express ourself and be open to him in showing him our honesty. This should be the easiest out of all of them. Because God wont take your honesty harshly. He won’t twist your emotions back onto you. He won’t have consequences for your honesty. Maybe your actions, but not your honesty.

Honesty on earth has fear behind it. And Satan thrives on that. BUT, God, there is no fear with God. You can be honest without fear.

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Pain makes me Hard honest. For the people that I mentioned before, that have no God love in their honesty, pain makes my hard honest come out. There is no love when my words of pain take over, when wrath clouds my judgment, Satan has already grabbed the game controller and hit the start button. My thoughts are shut down and I start to drift into ‘old self’. Anger and fight start to wash over me. And I’m afraid. …

I am struggling. I am trying, but, … God help me. I know he will.

I ask God to help me, not just to make things go away, or just take care of things. But to open my eyes to see he is with me. To put his hand on my thoughts and words, that I may say the right thing and not spiral. To put his hand on my heart to comfort me when I want to give into pain.

Lord help me keep strong in your silence.

My husband and I were talking last night, we cried and laughed about how HARD it is to be a Christian. It’s not hard to get saved, but after that, it is the hardest thing you will ever do. On a DAILY basis, if you’re serious about God’s word.

There are some that, they may be saved, that’s between them and God, but they don’t go to church. They don’t study their bible. They DO NOT put God first. They DO NOT put God as priority. They will have to pay for that here on earth, but for those of us who desperately try to be in God’s will and be close to him, it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever tried to do in my life.

But it’s worth it. It’s worth it.

If you think being a Christian is easy, you need to check yourself. And that’s my hard honesty, because that’s just a fact.

My motto for the year, No One’s opinion matters, only Jesus’. Even before my husbands, God’s opinion comes first and everything else doesn’t matter. It makes honesty a little easier.

Some people may think that is selfish. Maybe it is, but I can’t control your actions. I can’t control your thoughts and words, but I can control mine. And when I stay in God’s will, whether you can’t understand my actions or not, I know that’s where I need to be. Because God won’t lead me wrong, and he will give me peace when opposing words and actions come against me.